Top 20 of 2020

I yield my time, fuck you

I hesitate to call 2020 a dumpster fire or the worst year ever, not because it wasn’t terrible but because honestly, I feel like that sweeps it under the rug like oh, we’re done now, that’s over, thank god, things were good before and they were bad but now they’re good again, this is something to forget. I don’t want to forget this year. To borrow and put my own interpretation on a line from colonialist weenie Rudyard Kipling: “Lest we forget—lest we forget!” I don’t want to forget the appalling way the government responded to the pandemic, the substantial portion of the country that saw the last four years and said yes more of this, and the energy and activism and cooperative spirit that has always kept the world spinning away from the worst. I hope you got through this year as best as possible. Here’s what helped me in various ways:

  1. Hope in the Dark by Rebecca Solnit

  2. Participating in mutual aid

  3. How a Vaccine Whisperer Gets It Done

  4. Toast with a lot of good butter (I really did not want to cook)

  5. Hot baths

  6. Business Erotica

  7. The long and public reckoning that followed the Holocaust shows a path forward for a United States that desperately needs to confront its racist past.

  8. My neighbor’s window displays which I need to create a hashtag for

  9. Working out to this corny jam of a remix I heard from one of the Twitch streamers my husband follows in a bromantic way

  10. My husband (happy second anniversary, sorry the universe gets us trash gifts)

  11. The occasional times I saw loved ones who live outside my household and the many times I talked to them via the Internet and text

  12. My writing groups, The Wag and Fantastic Worlds

  13. Graceland Too - Phoebe Bridgers

  14. The brilliant I May Destroy You

  15. I Hold a Wolf by the Ears by Laura van den Berg

  16. Seeing 9 1/2 Weeks for the first time

  17. Ed Yong’s coronavirus coverage

  18. The Nickel Boys by Colson Whitehead

  19. Local news emporium Block Club Chicago

  20. Lovely, low-key perfect sci-fi mystery The Vast of Night

Dishonorable mentions:

  • [redacted]

  • Depression and anxiety

  • My weird cat. We didn’t want to get out of bed a lot, but I did.

I’ll see you in the new year. xx